Sunday, July 12, 2009
The scary side of human nature sometimes...
Its not been a very good week... This week I found out about a couple of things which I had rather not known. I did not purposely found out by checking or asking but from people who told me or revealed to me directly.
At times like this, I start to fear. Of cos I am not 100% authentic me at all times, there are times when I need/will tell white lies/put up a fake front depending on situations. However, in front of friends whom I deem can trust/believe in, I am at least 99.9% true me and I choose to believe them and that what they reveal to me is their true self.
"Look like the innocent flower but be the serpent under it." This is exactly what described this person. I have heard of what this person (I shall simply refer as TP) has done before but since TP did not admit and told me anything, I believe in TP and choose not to ask. Friends who know me should know I am someone who will not ask unless you want to tell me. I may teasingly say "tell me lah" but I will not force if he/she does not want to mention it.
TP has disappointed me greatly not just because of what I saw but also I came to realise how fake this TP is really. Spreading rumours and trying to get people to be against another person is totally intolerable when you are that kind of person yourself. I felt my trust was betrayed and hurt as a friend.
I start to wonder if I should behave as fake as this TP when I am facing TP. The best part? I have seldom mentioned or complained to anyone much about TP, but someone who don't really know TP also told me and warned me that TP is not as simple as it seems.
I have been pissed but chose to forgive/forget time after time of TP childish/irritating acts time after time, but I guess if this is the game TP chooses to play, perhaps I should put on a fake front in future as well. I dislike guessing games, poisoning people's minds and playing strategy games.
I shall be more careful/aware in future and shall put on my full gear so that I will not be hurt/betrayed in trust again.
Brenbren at 12:36 PM
