Leo born on Friday the 13th
Mild tempered when not working
Lioness when workaholic mode on
Mrs Lim as of 28/06/2009!

Losing faith... Having doubts...

Wondering: What has happened? Or what has not? Why are things turning out this way? Why are things and situations so difficult? I'm trying my hardest and my best in whatever I can, but its not working.

I'm tired, really tired. I hate myself for being a hypocrite and putting on a mask which is something I despise most in others. Yet, I'm doing it. Only becos I still wanna act/appear strong, maybe in someway hoping that I will really become strong somehow. I'm still my "normal" happy-go-lucky, cheerful and all-smiles for everyone. Inside, I'm bleeding and crying out loud.

I hate myself for being so weak and not being able to become really strong.
Contractions... Guess that's what life is abt....







Went to Little India yesterday to do a henna tattoo and turns out completely ruined and wasted. I was asking them how much its costs and they said to choose a design first cos the price depends on the complexity. Fine, after I chose the design I wanted, the lady told me $20!!! I was so shocked that its so ex but the design looked really nice, so I went with it.

After it was done, I regretted it immediately. For a freaking $20, I expected a piece of delicate art. What I got? Bold lines with a design drawn by what seems to be a half drunk person. The heart shape was totally slanted and out of shape and looked so simple that I can replicate myself. And the worst thing is, I asked it to be done on my arm, yet it was done so near my elbow. *piaks forehead* Now if I wanna cover it up, I gotta wear long sleeves le, kaoz. The tattoo was supposed to complement my dress on Sat, yet turns out in this way, arghz....

This is how terrible it looks like.

After that went to Icon @ Bugis to do my pedicure. it was $25 for a classic pedicure, quite reasonable, plus the nail art & stuff, total was $34. But turned out nice, I liked it, from the nail polish colour to the design (cos I choose one mah, lol). This is what I call art, haha.

Ended the day by gog back to watch SG Idol and yes, Paul is still in and Rahimah is out!! Yeah!! Ok, gotta go le, have an hair cut appt with my hairstylist at 1pm. Cya folks. =)

Nope, not mine of cos... Singapore's 41st birthday! And I'm so happy!!! Why? Becos.... PH mah and got firewworks to watch (my fav!)... LOL....

Leave approved le, gonna make use of it n enjoy my long week~ Yeah! Gonna book haircut on Fri, do my nails etc and make sure I'm in gd shape to wear tt dress, haha.... Sent out a resume this morning and the job sounds ok. Its in town area and pay not bad too, hope can get it bah, hehe.

Alright, gonna stop blogging for now and think go where today! Yeah~



Work sucks and in somehow, its affecting my life and how I feel. I really cannot stand customers who treat u like shit and step on ur feelings just becos they are the customers and you are earning their $$. Of cos there are really nice ones and I appreciate them cos we are all afterall working for the company and just doing our job.

For those who are just damn nasty/irritating/unreasonable: Just F**K Off! Just becos you give us biz, it doesn't give you the right to step on others the way you like it. Put yourself in others shoes before you scold/hurt/shout others. We are all human beings with feelings, why trample ppl like tt?

Colleagues are people who are supposed to be helping you and trustworthy especially you need each other's help more or less. But I seriously dunno why things have seem to take a change in direction or is it me who is learning too late? I seriously can't bother anymore sometimes, let people do/decide what they like. I just want my much needed income before I move on further... If I am able to, that is. I'm really tired, physically and mentally.

I'm not someone with high expectations in career, not at the moment at least. For me, I just wanna be happy and satisfied in a job and of cos with reasonable monetary rewards. But when the motivation and passion starts to fade, I feel like I am dragging myself to work everyday. When tt happens, its like a warning to get myself out before I crumble.

Though its more or less normal to yearn to own luxury stuff, but if it means sacrificing my happiness to earn and buy them. Be it LV, Gucci, Fendi, Chanel or watever f**k, forget it. I live by my own feelings, principles and believings.

Stubborn? Yes...
At a losing end becos of it? Maybe...
Regrets? No...
At least I am being true to myself.