Leo born on Friday the 13th
Mild tempered when not working
Lioness when workaholic mode on
Mrs Lim as of 28/06/2009!

Before the day ends.. Happy 77th Month Anni! 6 years and 5 months liao so fast~



I been thinking and was telling Hubby this year didn't seem to be a very good year. Of cos there were happy events especially friends getting married but there were many unpleasant/unhappy/sad things also.

Change of management at work, some lousy ex-colleagues who left shit behind, people leaving the company or asked to leave etc. Losing of close ones though they are probably in a better and happier place without pain now. Bad luck at the recent HDB ballot results, being sick almost every 1-2mths for the entire year.

Of cos there are things I cannot do/control to make it better which I try not to ponder too much on. But there were hardly many happy events enough to cover this black cloud. However in this process, I have learned some new things and appreciate some things as well.

I learned - not to take many things for granted, spend more time and show more concern for family and friends, not to judge people too much and push them away because of the 1st impression, some people are just assholes (not a gd thing though) which I should just ignore and on auto-off mode etc.

I appreciate - someone who cooks for me because I feel like eating it, someone who bothers and remembers to record my fav shows without my asking/reminding, someone who loves me for despite my flaws and all, someone who sayangs me and still strokes my head no matter I am 20 or 26yrs old, someone who hugs me tightly when I cry, someone who taught me and tells me abt his religion despite me not being able to understand and ask loads of why, someone who doesn't try to change me or asks me to convert because I'm a free thinker, someone who holds my hand/protects me, someone who makes the effort to do many small/big things just for me, someone who still never fails to give me surprises after so many years of being together, someone who is not stingy of his "i love u, muacks, huggies" etc. You know who you are... =)

This year has been a significant year for us both. Things that have happened which might be unhappy events have brought us closer. Our first step into the future - applying for a flat. Mum has finally "recognised" and accepted us as a couple, him as a future son-in-law.

I know at times with my fiery temper, I come to hate this family. But I also know deep down in my heart, I love them too much which leads to the hatred. I am fortunate in some ways. I might not have a father, but I still have a mother. A healthy mother who takes care of some of the minor things in my life so that I don't have to worry about or take time to do. Who still loves me deep inside in her own way, though she does not show it. Who never gave up on me even though I disappointed her time and again in school or life. I still envy people who have both their mum and dad, but I am not bitter about it. I have come to terms with this ages ago and it is really ok. Pls don't say sorry when you learn that my parents are divorced donkey years ago because it is really alright for me. (Errr, though I know some people are surprised that I didn't turn out the way some people expected me to be, haha...)

Love ya, gal frens. You gals light up my life and bring many smiles and laughter into my life. =)

Love ya, Hubby... Awaiting for good news later in the day regarding the unit. =)



I am pissed off. Very, very pissed off.

She takes my medicine out of my bag becos I forgot to take the medicine previously as I was busy with work, so no point for me to take since I forget.

She controls what time I come back and now even what I eat. I ask to eat A for dinner, she buys A plus B plus C plus D. The worst thing? I am so full after eating A, she insists I must eat B becos it is for me and noone in the family will eat it. I must drink C becos she has already buy my share and eat D becos its from a new stall, must try. For goodness sake, I am still sick and you're forcing me to eat all these things. I end up too full and having diarrhea. All those talks about "you're too fat, eat less, lose weight" and you buy me loads of food for dinner.

I buy new eyeshadow that costs me $40+ and she wash in water!!! Arghz... I haven't used it for the first time and upon testing on the same night, my sponge applicator was damp and soaked with water to my horror. Not the first time that this happens. Everything must be washed, cleaned and wiped before it is clean no matter what it is. You can tell her cannot wash, cannot make wet but it will not be of use after 2nd time. The items will still be washed and eventually spoil, rust, fade colour etc. My 1st Guess bag - $100+ and my present to myself, from a pretty glittery pink wask until the "diamonds" drop out and become a light, dirty pink. My 1st Guess wallet, from black become gray, the buckle became rusty and eventually part of the strap came out. My shoes/heels all washed by her with detergent till it forms bubbles while walking during rainy days and my soles fall apart after like 1mth of wear and she says my shoes are of lousy quality!!! My clothes lose their shape, part of the design, fade in colour after her washing.

I told her numerous times, do not touch my hp or take it away from me. So many times she has just taken my hp from me and placed it in my room without my knowing. Taking it away from me when I am napping and I missed so many calls especially related to work. It is not ok for you to take away my hp especially checking my sms even if you're my mum. These are lines you do not cross at all times. Opening all my letters despite marked private & confidential is not acceptable as well.

Arghz.... I am so sick and angry that I feel like shouting already. Only reason for me holding back is not wanting to start another war which I have no time and energy at this time.



I am still having flu and slight throat infection. Though I have taken lots of water, hot drinks and medicine, the runny nose and coughing comes back once I'm home.

Reason? Mum and sis refuses to off the aircon and on the fan instead in my room because... Mum does not want my sis to feel hot. Seriously dulan loh. Your elder daughter has to work, cope with shitty people at work, does not get enough/quality sleep and is sick... All you care about is your younger daughter who lazes at home the whole day, never earned a single cent in her whole life and all you're concerned about is whether she is comfy or not?

Last night I was asking my sis if she was sleeping in the same room as me (she sometimes sleep with Mummy) and she said no. So I told her to switch off the aircon and on the fan for me when she's going out of the room. I fell asleep first and woke up in the morning finding out the aircon was still on, of course my flu and cough became worse.

Went to work coughing and having slight runny nose. Took warm water and Panadol after brekkie and felt better. Michelle gave me a lift to Tampines cos we stay nearby and dropped me at TM cos I was meeting Hubby there. Went for lunch with Hubby at Century Square foodcourt and had a terrible Pepper Lunch - miserable servings and bloody ex. Felt so cheated and we were still hungry. Decided to eat prata and shifted tables and... Saw Yeo and gf there, haha. Was saying bye bye to him not long ago in office when I was leaving, such a coincidence to bump into him there.

After prata, we headed to NTUC to get some toiletries before heading back to Hubby's place. Took plenty of warm water and Panadol again, on the fan instead of aircon and watched TV. Was feeling better when I left his place.

Once home and in my room, all my efforts went down the drain. I had specially informed mum not to on the aircon before I showered, but still the aircon was on when I finished bathing. Damn pissed. Sis happened to walk into the room and I told her to off the aircon and on the fan for me cos it was making me feel uncomfy and sick. She just totally ignored me, sat down on the bed and watched TV enjoying the aircon.

Arghz!!!! I am so f**king pissed off. Don't they care about my health and how I feel? I seriously wonder sometimes if I even belong to this family which I am never top priority and always getting "2nd class" treatment. If it was my sis who was sick, my mum would be so concerned and worried abt her. Giving and doing whatever my sis would ask for as long as she's happy and comfy. At times like this, I feel like crying and wonder why I am so stupid at times to be concerned and worried about them when I am probably not in the top 10 priorities list in their life. I feel sickening foolish and angry with myself.

The worst thing? I cannot even show/express my unhappiness and anger to them becos that will cause a storm and war with Mum. Not now, not here please. I am really sick.



Am down with diarrhea, flu and throat infection. Nose is like a leaking pipe now and its gonna be the weekend, damn sianz. Hope can recover soon.

Was watching TV and heard a wedding song. For the fun of it, I went to Youtube and searched some nice, sweet songs. Enjoy~ Especially those have just got married & getting married couples. =) Brings a smile to me, hope it brings a smile to you too.

刘德华－ 结婚进行曲


任贤其 － 你是我老婆




Though I have complained about certain places' food and service quality/standard before, I have never really gotten down to writing a complaint.

However, visit to Tampines Mall's Fish & Co. today really pissed me off that I took photos of the bad food quality as proof and decided to write in and complain. To my dismay, the "contact us" tab on the website only allows you to fill in the form and does not disclose their email address. Kaoz, scared what?

I am still fuming loh, not because of the money spent on this kind of quality/standard but more like this outlet has disappointed me so many times and this time, there were less than 5 tables only in the restaurant. How can they let this happen? What if it was full house? Moreover, they're a reputable restaurant with so many outlets, this should not be the kind of food and service they're offering.

The so called creamy garlic and lemon butter sauce was oily and charred loh. Even the mussels' shells were charred, obviously the fire was too big loh and the butter became oil instead. When Hubby ordered swordfish collar, we were told it was out of stock which they did not mention earlier. My pasta was undercooked instead of al dente and... noone refilled my ice water despite them clearing our plates often!!!!

Arghz, less than 5 tables and the service is like that? If full house, I think maybe every dish undercooked or overcooked.

Shall wait and see if they reply or not, whatever the reason maybe, it is still unforgivable loh. Hmph. Still, they better give me a good explanation that is satisfactory and convince me to partonise them again.



That's the title of the latest Chinese romance novel I'm reading and just completed today. Bascially its about how this guy and gal got to know each other thru online messenger by accident and became 干哥哥 and 干妹妹。But... The "brother" is actually younger than the "sister" by 1 year, pengz. But the because the guy is more mature and street smart than the gal, thus he became the elder brother.

The gal was torn between 2 guys who were wooing her - 1st guy was the brother's best friend and the other guy is attached with a gf. She feels the 1st guy is a nice guy but does not have feelings for him and though she is more attracted to the 2nd guy, but he is attached. The "brother" tells her that no matter what she decides and who she chooses, he will stand by her and support her though he did warn her about the 2nd guy could hurt her.

Eventually, they start spending time together when each other is free and the gal had rejected the 1st guy. The guy is still thinking of his ex-gf whom he gave up due to he felt the feelings had changed after they were in different schools and locations. However, he feels kindda guilty and still misses her. The gal developed feelings for him and professed her love to him one day and he was stunned. He held back because he felt that he might be betraying his best friend. But what the gal felt was，it was because he was thinking of his ex which was part of the reason.

The guy sent the gal back to her hostel and told her to give him some time and she replied [有些事情，不会等人。。。]. He felt his heart aching and when school re-opened the next day, he immediately told his best friend that he liked her and apologised, asking him if he can be with the gal. His fren told him to go ahead and he had no longer had feelings for the gal, telling him to treat her well and to forget his ex-gf.

The guy called up his ex-gf to ask how she was doing and the ex-gf told him that she's happy now because she has found the ideal person for her and forgotten about him. She encouraged him to be with the gal and told him to pursue his happiness.

So the guy immediately went to look for the gal to profess his feelings for her. Below is the extract which I felt was so touching...

Guy: 我要拿东西给你。
Gal: 嗯，那东西呢？
Guy: 在我拿这个东西给你前，你愿意拿一个东西跟我换吗？
Gal: 可以跟你换呀，但是你先说你要拿什么东西跟我换。
Guy: 你愿意用你一辈子的幸福来跟我换我想守护你、爱你、疼你一辈子的心吗。。。

OMG, its so sweet and touching loh. Its almost like a proposal except that he's asking her to be with him and be his gf. Haha, I think I am really such a hopeless romantic.

If one day a guy ever propose (err, I mean think only will have that 1 guy lah hor?) to me like that, I will sure break into tears and say yes! Lol... But doubt so lah, cos that guy's Mandarin kindda cannot make it, haha. He will sure stumble over the words and probably can't read some/most of the characters above. Even if he can, likely to be in English version also. Ok, digressing too much liao, oops.

Just wanted to share the above story as though its a simple love story but I really like the title and the paragraph that I extracted. 我也想这样牵着你不放。。。 =)



Had dinner at Jumbo with colleagues at ECP yesterday night and had yummy food. Sambal kangkong, deer meat, cereal prawns, chilli crab, scallop with yam ring etc. Food was good but service could be better. After the first 2 dishes were served, we waited ages for the next few dishes. Ordered drink was forgotten and ended up they didn't have it anymore. Duhz.

It was kindda hot also cos the fan wasn't blowing our direction, haha. First time Bixin ate all the dishes, especially the crab, lol. She said, dun care, have rashes also must eat, hehe.

After dinner, sent our Japanese colleague to the airport, dropped Bixin at Pasir Ris and Kelly at Tampines. I grabbed a cab from Tampines to St. James for partying, hehe.

As usual, I am the first one to reach, pengz. Sometimes I wonder if being punctual is a virtue or weak point for me. Thank goodness I didn't have to wait too long before the others arrived. Was feeling kindda lost all on my own cos I am usually with Hubby when going clubbing. Felt so out of place and sua ku, hehe.

The queue was not long so we got in pretty quickly without much hassle. There was a live band performing in few sections. Took photos, drank, dance, laughing away most of the time. Had lots of fun, b-day gal kept asking me if I was bored, haha. No worries gal, with you around where will bored? Hehe, Happy Birthday once again anyway~

I was like on off seh for a while and glad that I did not get any hangover. All in all, I had great fun, laughter and enjoyed myself lots. Reached Hubby's place around 4am, bathed and watched TV till 5am and ordered Mcdonald for supper/breakfast. Slept around 6am and was woken up by sms and calls from 9+am onwards. Hubby complained why my phone always ring on weekends. =x Slept on off till 11+ am and had 2nd round of breakfast - Prata! Haha, so sinful. Continued to watch TV and surf net till 2+pm before heading home.

Today stayed at home and be a good gal, hehe. Accompanied Mummy and chatted with her about stuff, something I have not done for a long time. Was telling her I had lot of fun last night and trying to perusade her to let me go again sometime, lol. Mummy worries that fights will break out and there might be shady people at these places, but I explained to her and assured her that everything is ok and my frens take good care of me. =) She's slightly assured that I am in safe hands but still doesn't like her daughter to go these places, so jia you bah!



Absolutely sad, disappointed and discouraged by the ballot results. A colleague of mine got queue #3000+ and a gf got 7105.

Sigh, guess we can only get a resale flat from the market or wait till next Apr for the next ballot which I doubt that we will have a chance also. The waiting game is gonna continue again and I am so tired of it. Another 5mths, Hubby will be turning 30 (the next ballot falls on his b-day exactly), we will be together for 6yrs 10mths and I will be 4mths away from turning 27.

Looks like its gonna be a long, long wait before any wedding bells are gonna ring. Haiz...


Hubby had his wisdom tooth extracted today by surgery and he's in pain, me so heartpain also. =( Can imagine his pain cos I had mine done few years back. In fact, I need to take out the other one as well which I suppose is fully grown already, jaws and teeth feeling sore and painful sometimes. But can't find/afford to take 5 days MC for now, maybe next year bah.

He's sleeping most of the time today after taking medicine, hope he gets some good rest and recover soon. His stitches will only be removed next Tues and for the time being, gotta survive on a liquid diet. Reminded him not to use the side that was operated on and hopefully can go his place these 2 days to check on him. Fortunately he didn't have any fever/headache which I had previously. I think I am just damn suay.

I remember he was the one who accompanied me to my surgery then and sent me home. Who saw me in one of my worse state - cheek swollen, unable to control my jaw/speech/saliva when the anesthesia started working. No matter how bad tempered/unreasonable/grumpy I am at times, he gives in to me/pampers me/coax me 80% of the time. =) I was surfing the net and went to kpo at Hubby's Friendster account. Though the profile has been there for ages without any changes, it still brings a smile to my face whenever I read it. An extract from his profile as below:

• Favorite Books:
  

  More pics and less words. Nudity would help a little

• Favorite TV Shows:
  

  Anything with lots of food and gals.. ermm minus the gals

• About Me:
  

  Working hard for the day to say "I take you to be my wife, my partner in life and my one true love. I will cherish our union and love you more each day than I did the day before. I will trust you and respect you, laugh with you and cry with you, loving you faithfully through good times and bad, regardless of the obstacles we may face together. I give you my hand, my heart, and my love, from this day forward for as long as we both shall live."

The first 2 favourites are so him, he hates reading except for gaming and IT mags. We both love watching food programmes, haha. The best part? Whenever I see those pretty gals with great figures on TV/movies, I always tell Hubby "So pretty hor? Her figure so good, so envy." etc. But Hubby will always tell me, to him I'm the cutest, hehe. *blush* At least he bothers to coax me, wahaha.

Whenever I read his "About Me", I can't help but feel so touched and blissful. Its like, for a guy to say this in his profile is like a promise and his shoutout says "Working hard to marry my Galgal", so *~*~*~*~*~*~!

13.5 hours more to the ballot results and hopefully we can get a good queue number to start our first step into the future. If all turns out well, Gracie will be accompanying me when buying the fridge! I need all the luck I can, keep me in your prayers~ =)
















Looks so interesting and tempting! So Hubby went to order our lunch while I find a seat. After a few mins, these dishes appeared on our table~







Came across PhotoFunia while reading someone's blog and this is so fun! Hehe... There are many effects which you can play with and these are my personal favourites. Who says you have to be famous/rich/powerful for your face to be shown in public?

See, they're admiring my photos... =p