Saturday, June 23, 2007
Yes.. I am so hurt... Physically...
Had a fall yesterday and seriously drama loh. Tripped, fell and rolled down the stairs. Got a cut, some skin scrapped off and bruises... Sigh.. really painful loh. Tmr got wedding dinner to attend somemore, got to try to coverup, if not look so ugly... Sigh...
Think I really been down on my luck recently... How sia.... Sob sob...
Brenbren at 12:46 PM
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Took a test juz now and its says this:
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now. I think some parts are true and some not... Which is true and which is not? That's for me to know and you to find out... hehe...
Brenbren at 1:15 AM
Thursday, June 07, 2007
Been busy with work for the past few weeks or so... Though its tiring, frustrating and stressful at times, but its still been challenging for me. Learnt lotsa new stuff, my colleagues are easy to get along with and we often share a laugh together. Other than the long hours as usual and the fickle-minded customer, the other stuff are pretty ok and flexible.
Though officially we start work at 8.30am, but we don't really have to step in exactly at that time. Lunch time is pretty flexible and we do try to keep to 1hr, only occassionally taking slightly longer when we drive out to eat.
I learnt lots of things from doing a permit, seafreight import, air freight import/export, triangle shipments, billing etc. Maybe thanks to the previous dept I was in which I was involved in the back end, I now have a better understanding of what is gog on and the entire flow as I'm in the front end now. Honestly, it feels a little good sometimes to be giving instructions to others, unlike the past when I was receiving instructions. But still, I'm not gonna let that get to my head. Just happy that I moved on and so far so good. I do feel tired out and stressful at times, but I feel job satisfaction. Though the boss sucks (=p), but we are still able to operate on our own as a team, I think that's pretty good and cool. Hehe...
Social life... Well, I still don't have a life after work cos I'm working even later than before. Think its been weeks from the last time I went out after work. On avg, I start work at 8.30am and end work around 9.30-10.30pm, so go on and calculate how many hours I clock in a day.
Love life... Though the long hours has not affected the r/s and was never a factor, but somehow, something seems missing. Maybe we been together for too long and now that we are both working long hours and tired out, the sparks have kindda diminished. Have been wondering if we should really carry on, if we are together becos we are just too used to each other, if there is still love, if we will really get married etc? Lots of questions, conflicts have been gog on in my mind and I don't really know if its what I want anymore.
Suddenly it doesn't matter anymore if we get married or not becos I don't even know where we are heading to. I'll just take a step at a time for the time being cos I'm really too tired out by work to think abt this.
Brenbren at 1:00 AM