Leo born on Friday the 13th
Mild tempered when not working
Lioness when workaholic mode on
Mrs Lim as of 28/06/2009!

it really does... I more or less expected it, right after she targets my sis, she will target me.

But still, it still hurts terribly each time despite it has happened thousands of times. I wish I was numb as what she said and that I don't care.

I am just a money tree afterall, not only that, a money tree that never gives enough.

I am in so much pain that while playing Bejewelled to take my mind off, tears started flowing freely. I told myself not to be affected loads of times, but it doesn't work.

I really, really hate this place where I am always an outcast yet trapped in this prison which I can never break free. Even Mas Selamat could break free and escape, yet I am stuck here for goodness knows when.

So please, if someone's death is required to end all this, let it be me if I am really such a terrible person...



28th May = 83 mths and 2 days together = 1 month to be Mrs Lim!

I am in a pretty ok mood today. Had dinner with Michelle, Yeo & Jocelyn, followed by coffee where Peter and Alan joined us. Its been quite a couple of weeks since we gathered together for dinner and coffee. Too bad I always have to leave the earliest cos of my curfew. Look forward to more dinner and coffee sessions with them.

I am on leave tomorrow to clean the house cos our funiture is coming tomorrow. Dining set will be delivered tomorrow first, followed by bedroom and living room set on Saturday. Kindda excited and happy!

Gonna do a bit of grocery shopping tomorrow morning first so that I can cook dinner for Hubby, keke. Have not cooked proper dishes for a long time, hope it turns out nice!

Time for some work emails and RC now, adios!



Its only another 31 days before our important day, but I'm feeling lost and down becos of the family crisis.

Its always like this, whenever there's somethng happy for me, something bad always happens. I wonder if I'm jinxed.

I feel so sickenly tired especially of work and some people. Sometimes I wonder why I evn bother when I can just simply bo chup. But I just can't bring myself to do it.

A lot of things are going on in my mind and I am feeling the burden of this family. I feel unfairly treated, a money tree and always make used of but there's nothing I can do to stop it unless ties are severed.

I'm really sick and tired...



Those stupid Indian customers and captain made me lose so much sleep following up on their shipment till 7am and now say I cause their inconvenience. WTH...

Their lines could not get through, PSA say no such vessel, customer say don't have captain's contact and ask me make decision; and now its my bloody fault? Bloody hell... Yeah, I called him up 3am in the morning India time, so what? Its 6am in Singapore loh for goodness sake. I don't need to sleep ah?

Grr, these people are seriously in need for lessons on how to be more responsive and responsible. Its your bloody cargo for goodness sake and everything I ask you, you cannot decide and answer. Now you wanna shift the blame to me?

Who was the one following up from 11+ to 1am, 5am to 7am with barely 3hours of sleep in between? ME... And now I am to blame? I would not have bother to follow up if I don't care.

I am already having more than enough problems at home and now all these, am really going mad.



3 hours ago, I mentioned my mobile will ring if there are problems with the shipment. So here I am at 6.22am...

Mobile rang at approx 5.15-5.20 am, so I slept for only 2+hrs and I cannot go back to sleep till at least 7am which is the cut-off timing.

I am struggling to keep my eyes open while waiting for a reply email from the vessel's Captain which may never come. Talking to the customer in India did not help much because everything I asked, he doesn't have an answer. And he actually tell me its 3am in India, wth... Its 6am in SIN when I call him loh, then I don't need to sleep as well?

He actually even asked me to make the decision because there's nothing he can do... Grrr...

So fine, I told him we will wait till 0700hrs, no vessel, we leave.
I am freaking tired and my body is sore and aching... I need my bed....



Bought some stuff from Prints a few days back before our appt at Gallery Hotel for our house and guest book.

Was supposed to use the purple butterfly print paper to cover up an area in our MBR, but Hubby has painted it purple instead. Now wondering what to do with it...




Some stuff for the guest book, stickers, booklet with purple glitter and purple lace ribbon with purple pearls. I think the purple ribbon simply looks gorgeous and unique. (Jimmy was like: "Purple again?!?") =p



And this is what I transformed it into... =)






Went to collect our wedding bands today and they look so pretty! Love my 6 tiny diamonds and turning the outer ring round and round, keke.

Amanda said to bring it back for checking if I drop or knock the ring. Chaim liao, I am always so clumsy and "chor lor".
As for Hubby's ring, since there are no diamonds, he doesn't have to worry.

We had lunch at Sakura Thai Chinese Restaurant after that before heading to Marina Square to buy more paint. The 2 bedrooms will likely be painted in Dusk and Deep Violet. Still deciding the colours for the study room and living room. Maybe Lilac White?

Some photos to share, hehe....






Its 42 days to the solemnisation and I should be feeling excited and nervous.

I was initially after trying the ROM dress and and getting my heels. But she's ruined everything again - the same old reasons, the same whole theory... I know and friends have told me not to get affected, but I really can't. She doesn't know or care how much she means to me exactly because her way of measuring me is only in monetary terms.

The part that upset me the most was that not only she said she will not go, she also said if people asked about her, just say she's dead... She would rather be treated as dead than to attend my important day. Saying she has already treated that she does not have a elder daughter and she will take it that she has never given birth to me before, stabs my heart.

I really feel like crying out loud, but I don't even have the heart and courage to. I should be immune by now, but it doesn't seem so. The cold war is still continuing with sarcastic remarks made to me now and then. I am bleeding so badly but nothing can stop the pain and bleeding.

I am so sick and tired of the whole cycle throughout the years but it stills repeat year after year, time after time every few weeks/months. The wounds might heal, but the scar will forever remain and still torn apart each time the war starts.

I need courage, bravery and willpower to pull it through and I hope I can survive. How contradicting it is when my beloved gfs are even more concerned and happier for me compared to her. Thanks, my pretty babes for always being there for me.

Amanda/Clarity has called me during work and informed us that our rings are ready for collection. This has put a bit of excitement back into me though still not enough. Hope everything turns out nice and well.

I have really no mood now to choose the ring pillow, worry about the guest list etc. I feel my energy has been drained and I wanna take a short break. I feel like just bo chup everything and let it go cos I am really tired. Help me please...



I want/need a keychain for my new housekeys... Never had the need for a keychain cos I don't have to carry keys at all for my mum's house. So now that I own a house myself, I don't have a nice/proper keychain to carry my keys.

I saw one of the keychains at Coach the other day and its so sweet (and its purple!)... But, sigh, now its not the time to lust after such stuff.Shall bear with my plain, boring keychain first bah till $ drops from the sky.







Went to GHA Yishun to try the ROM dresses since Tampines branch is so limited. I was worried and skeptical initially because the choices I had at Tampines was like almost no choice have to choose either one.

Helen picked about 3-4 white long dresses for me and I asked for short dresses as well. But she said usually bigger size customers usually prefer/choose long ones because legs will look fat if exposed. But me and the gals still feel I should try and I think I look better in short or 3/4 length dresses.

So she said she will find for me and ta dah! She found 1 short, purple dress! I was so happy and excited~ Its my fav colour loh!

I tried the 1st white long dress first and it looks ok. Simple and nice but the length really looks funny on me. Tried the purple dress and all of us felt it looked nice! Surprisingly, my legs didn't look very fat in it, keke. Err, I think my lower legs not that fat bah though not very toned? The best part was, the dresses I tried previously usually cannot be zipped all the way up, but this dress could zip up and in fact a bit bigger! It was so destined to be my ROM dress loh, haha.

Secretly took a photo in it but its not very well taken lah because they will always unzip the dress for me to change so I have to "kiap" the dress in order to keep it on to take the pic. So this photo looks like a bit no waist. No cleavage also lah cos no padding yet, lol... I wanted to keep this as a surprise, but I am really too happy and excited le, haha.

Just to confirm that I really, really love this dress, I tried on another 2 white dresses. The 2nd white dress was too tight around the arms area and the lace to cover the arms made me look old. The 3rd dress was well sweet but not impressive. So I tried the purple dress again and confirm that I really, really love it and suit me.

Changed out of it later on and Helen took my measurements for alteration. Then we headed downstairs to take a look at the hand bouquet. I wanted purple roses but scared it will blend in with the dress and I really like those bouquets with string of pearls on it.

So I decided to take purple and white roses with string of pearls on it. =) So I am on track for my purple theme, keke! Purple invitation cards, purple organza for the solemnisation table and chairs, purple labels for wedding favours, purple ROM dress, purple & white roses bouquet~ Lalala~ Left with purple tie/shirt for Hubby, hehe.


Next, we headed to Far East Plaza to shop for my heels. Helen recommended Anna Nucci and I remember Cammie bought her very nice bling, bling heels there too for her AD. I actually find most of the heels there quite tall but lucky there are a few shorter ones.

The few pairs I tried on made my ankles look very fat and big cos quite exposed. I decided to go for something more strappy so that there are more lines to "break" the fats away. So finally chose this pair! Subtle blings blings and can cover up more of my feet!


I supposed I'm almost done for the ROM preparations except for:

- collection of wedding bands before mid June
- choosing and ordering of ring pillows
- getting started on the well wishes thingy
- Hubby's shirt, pants, tie and shoes
- confirmation of no. of guests and menu with Gallery Hotel

Jia you! Many thanks to babes Charlene and Meilin for sacrificing their PH to accompany me! =)


I went shopping at Coach as well to get something, keke. But I shall not reveal it yet, keep tuned for the surprise... shhh... =x



Grrr, I feel like roaring...

The ERA agent is giving me problems and I am not getting my money back which was what we agreed on. Its none of my bloody business that the seller never pay her the full amount because she didn't do a good job. The fact is: 1) She really did not do a good job. 2) I paid our share of commission in full and because of mutual trust, we agreed she will give us back the amount agreed on.

Then like its not enough heart attack. I received email from the vendor for wedding favours saying my orders are ready for collection. WTH! I never even place the order yet loh. I said clearly on 22/Apr in the email I only need 40-45pcs and she tell me my 50pcs ready, faintz.

I didn't even confirm anything and even said I will confirm last week or this week only when the guests RSVP. Aiyoh.. *slap forehead*

In the end, I even quote and unquote my email because she likes to send a fresh email every time.

Seriously don't know how people work nowadays. What happened to professionalism and following up?!? I guess being in customer service makes me less tolerant of bad service... =x



Since we have bought our rings, its time to buy the ring pillow!

We came across cute ones on http://www.theweddingthoughts.com/ring.htm

I think the lambs are cute while Hubby likes 2nd lamb pair and the dogs.
Its a coincidence that Hubby and me are born in the year of goat and dog, keke.
So I jokingly suggested that we do 1 lamb and 1 dog to represent us both, haha.

But think it would look really weird and not matching bah. Personally, I like the 3rd pair of lamb cos the stitching is in purple, lol.








Yeah, we got our wedding bands finally! Actually, we only started shopping for it on Friday. But before that, I did browse a few websites and entered a few shops to get some ideas.

These are a few that I liked and I noticed they are similar, haha... The blings blings I mean if you know what I mean.






We went to Toa Payoh today to look around for furniture.

The 1st store we went to offered us $3,388 for a L-shape sofa set, coffee table, TV console, dining table + 4 chairs. Its considered expensive for only living room and dining area furniture, but you could tell from the design and make that these were good quality stuff.

We were considering to get the package and maybe source for bedroom set separately. But since its only the first store we visited, we decided to view a few others first before deciding especially since the lady said no expiry for this offer to us.

So we headed to Novena Furniture which Hubby said there's a sale going on this weekend. The 1st level designs didn't really catch much of my attention and I was actually quite disappointed. We went up to level 2 and there were more designs to view!

We shopped there for like maybe 2 hours? The guy attending to us was Alvin and he was a nice, friendly guy who answered all my queries and who bothered to check stuff for me right away. He was attentive but not pushy and could make recommendations/advice to us. This is what I call good customer service (though his title is product specialist lah)!

In the end we got one of the packages they had and topped up a bit because the bedroom set costs more (I seriously have no idea why things I choose/like always more expensive)... Total damage: $2,987.00

Here's what we got:
Black Leather L-Shape Sofa which comes with cushions: $599
Coffee Table which comes with 2 stools: $399
Black TV console: $199
Black Glass Dining Table + 4 black leather chairs: $899
Bedroom Set (2-door sliding wardrobe + dressing table & stool + queen size bed frame with storage drawers + bedside table): Original - $1,488, after discount - $1,199

The total should be $3,295 but what they did was take one of the package which consists of sofa+coffee table+dining set ($1.6+ K I think) and add the bedroom set to it. So we have so-called savings of $300+.

Anyway, since its still cheaper than the first store, we decided to take it.
As our paints are not painted and floors not varnished yet, we will ask them to deliver around end May. Didn't manage to take pics of the furniture we bought, so can't wait to receive it all!

Most of the stuff we chose are black, haha... So I suppose we have to paint the house one of the off-white colours so that the house will not look so dark. Left only the study room and 2nd bedroom to be furnished, but that can wait. Next items on the list will be a fridge, washing machine, shoe cabinet and some electrical appliances. =)

Tomorrow we will be hunting for the wedding bands, the rings that will bind us as husband and wife forever! Appointment with Clarity at 2.30pm, hope we can find something nice and affordable~



some pretty things which are good/pretty to have, but not a priority... I can always dream, keke!








I went to get my nails done on Monday (express french manicure and express pedicure) after work. Thought it will look nicer when I try the ROM dresses on Wednesday (I know - Excuses!! wanna pamper myself a bit).

So I chose a light purple with a glitter top coat (yes, yes.. I know... Purple again)... =p

French mani is pretty predictable, but I like that its simple enough to match with dresses and looks nice enough for work.