Leo born on Friday the 13th
Mild tempered when not working
Lioness when workaholic mode on
Mrs Lim as of 28/06/2009!

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Was feeling bored and decided to do this. Have done this like 1-2yrs back but just for the fun of it, tried it again with a recent photo. Turns out that I still look about the same cos I have almost all the same matches previously. Such a coincidence that someone I look similar has the same name as me, haha.

26th Jul
Went Clarke Quay for a walk with Hubby and passed by the GMax Bungy Jump thingy. There was an Indian man and Caucasian lady preparing to take a ride. Hubby want to see their expressions and reactions which were shown on the TV screens, so we stopped by and watched which was pretty hilarious. Hubby then joked he know how to propose liao - take the ride together and propose up in the air so I have no choice to agree. I told him wait long long cos I have phobia of heights and will never take the ride even if you pay me thousands. Anyway, he's always coming up with weird/unromantic/ridiculous ideas to propose which kindda upsets me at times. Sometimes the way he jokes about stuff hurts me a lot and makes me feel he doesn't treasure me or feel I'm important at all. Things like don't need wedding dinner, mee goreng and nasi brayani at void deck will do etc. =(

Anyway, we headed to Song Fa Bak Kut Teh to have lunch, ordered Bak Kut Teh, braised intestines, braised ground nuts, "giam cai" and you tiao. The soup was heavenly without being too peppery.



Walked around The Central in the evening before heading to Island Resort for customer's bbq as the captain is leaving Singapore soon. Met them for the first time after liaising on the phone for the past year. I found out some rather interesting stuff though which me and Hubby discussed after the bbq. Shall not disclose here though, haha... Call me for details if you wanna know, lol.

After reaching home was rather shag cos I was woken up at 9.10am and could not go back to sleep (I had slept at 4+am only loh). Didn't logon at night and went to bed ccos I had to wake up at 10am the next morning.

27th Jul
Woke up around 8+am because of the shouting again, as usual the same thing happened, that f**ker was threatening to jump down again, the usual drama. Was really frustrated as this has been going on every day/week, stomped out of the room to the kitchen, yell at that man "one more time, you're out of here".

Went to my room to try to sleep but had tummy ache twice. Finally managed to fall asleep at 9.30am but slept for only 1 hr before I bathe and change to go downstairs. Mummy said she wanna eat at the coffeeshop and ask me if I can make it? By right my appt was at 11am and it was 11.05am but I chose to eat with her first cos its been ages since we ate together alone.

Dropped by the salon to tell the lady boss I'm gonna eat first and come back later, she said ok since she had 2 customers to attend to. Had the same food as Mummy, Fu Zhou Yu Yuan Mian which is her fav. Mummy had walked to the coffeeshop first while I dropped by the salon and she actually ordered, paid and brought the food to me including the drinks. I was touched actually because I'm already turning 26 soon but Mummy still does it like I'm just 6 yrs old when it should be me serving her. We had a quick lunch and talked a little or rather she was complaining to me about that f**ker. I feel very tired facing all these everyday and its no longer a place called home. Only a house where I go back to eat, bathe and sleep.

Went to the salon around 11+ and waited till 12+ to1pm before it was my turn. After 6 hours, ta-dah, its finally done!! Done what? See below~




Ok, the pics ain't very clear.... Basically I rebond and crimped sections of my hair. So its like straight with "corn perm" effects here and there. I really like the look cos its not like really flat and can change pattern a bit, wahaha. The only thing is I can't wash my hair till Tuesday, so no sweating for me for these 2 days! Cost of damage - $200.00 for the rebonding, crimping and treatment and $20.00 for the "oil", some kind of essence thingy I think.

Alright, going to bed now... Tell me how I look, ya? Hehe... =)



The title says it all!

*muacks* Love ya, Hubby! 2mths plus before HDB launch for the 4-room flats on 10th Oct and our first target~ Jiayou~



Hubby left for KL this morning and will probably be back on Friday only... =(

Though its for work, but still don't like the feeling of not being able to call and sms him anytime I want cos his hp bills will probably shoot up. Hate the feeling of him not being around, like half of me is gone.

Sms Hubby a few times today like kindda reporting to him. Telling him I'm going for lunch and remind him to eat. Telling him I'm feeling depressed and stressed at work and asking what he's doing? Telling him I have left office, feeling very tired and sianz. Telling him I have reached home and da bao dinner, asking if he has eaten? Every sms ending with miss you lots stuff and asking him to come back faster.

That super unromantic guy never say he miss me at all, sob sob. Only muacks and hughug, hmph... Still can say one sms 60cents, very ex.... Kaoz, I not worth 60 cents?

He called me 3 times though but conversation was short. Sigh, I miss him so much... Sob sob... Next month he's going for 2 weeks reservist, even worse... Haiz, can he don't go? I actually suggested breaking one of his legs so he won't go... =x

Now not staying together already like that le, can't imagine if next time have our own home le and I all alone how. Think I will go bonkers being home alone and I hate being in a place all alone no matter where, very scary... Boo hoo... =(



On Saturday, I had 2 encounters with men whom I do not know and had some strange/funny conversation.

1st encounter - 8.30am @ Century Square taxi stand
I went to Century Square's Coffeebean to buy the breakfast sets for 2 colleagues and myself. While waiting at the taxi stand for a cab, the security guard who was there also chatted with me. The conversation went something like this.... SG = Security Guard

SG: Morning Miss.
Me: Morning. (Thinking: Oh no, I hate conversations in the morning when I'm still half-asleep & with someone I don't know)
SG: You work nearby?
Me: Nope.
SG: Are you Filipino?
Me: No. I'm Singaporean. (Thinks: Bloody hell, I look like one meh?)
SG: Oh, there are a lot of IT and data centres here, I thought you work here, a lot of Filipinos and foreigners. Nowadays a lot of Singaporeans nowadays cannot tell if they're Chinese or Malay etc.
Me: Ya... Got international face. (Thinks: Where the hell is my cab?)

Finally, a cab comes, my life savior!

SG: Here comes your cab. Bye Miss.
Me: Bye. (Quickly walks towards the cab)
SG: Where you heading to? Where you working at?
Me: Work, Alps Ave.

After getting on the cab, I wondered why I even answered his last question? *faintz*

2nd encounter - After work, 3+pm somewhere around Simei
I was taking bus 9 from Changi Cargo Complex to Tampines St. 21 to switch bus to no. 8 as I was heading to Hubby's place. When I was reaching the bus-stop where I was supposed to alight at, my mobile rang, a customer had called. So while on the phone, I forgot to alight at the bus stop and the bus turned into Simei. Arghz. So I had to alight at Simei and instead of taking bus 9 back again, cross the road and switch to 8, I decided to take a cab as I was freaking tired and sianz.

I managed to get a cab quite fast, but alas, that's where I encountered the weird uncle... TD = Taxi Driver (a uncle in his 40's-50's wearing specs, plump and balding). By the way, all below conversation is in Mandarin.

Me: Ubi Ave 1
TD: You want some bread? (Offers me his bread)
Me: Nope, thanks. (Thinks: Pengz, I dunno you and you offer me bread, you think I dare to eat meh?)
TD: At this time going there can't be for work. Going to learn driving?
Me: Nope.
TD: Going to the industrial parks?
Me: Nope, going home.
TD (in a gayish tone): 讨厌！All I guess wrongly.
Me (-_-|||): .... (Thinks: OMG, that's bloody gross, can I slap his head?)
TD: There got a clinic at Blk 300+, very good one, a lot of people queue one. Must early morning go, very good for treatment of legs. You know where? Seen the clinic before?
Me: Nope, I don't stay there, my bf stays there, I'm going his place.
TD (in that bloody gayish tone again): 讨厌！You have bf one ah.
Me thinks: Kaoz, so what if I have bf? Even if don't have, I also not interested in you loh.

Then he kept quiet while we were on the expressway and I thought I was safe liao. BUT... When exiting the expressway, he talked to me again which made me feel like he's one of those serial killer on TV.

TD: Don't know why nowadays got those China women call/sms my phone, how they get my number? Call me and tell me "My name is Xiao Tong, I got a friend whose figure is very good, very svelte, you interested can find her." I call her back and tell her I'm the police, I can catch her based on her address. She then denies calling me before.
Me thinking: Siao liao... Doesn't sound right...
TD: Dunno why the govt allow these women to come to Singapore? The other foreigners come don't have such a problem, unlike these China women. *in a agitated tone* These women are really 下贱， got problem.
Me thinks: Die liao, he sound like those serial killer who think women are bitches and deserve to die and be killed...
TD: Got one time I went TTSH for doctor appt, got a China woman approach me, ask me need massage or not? Hospital they also go, really cheap. I told them, upstairs a lot patients need their massage. She scold me pervert.
Me thinks: OMG, shit, chaim liao... He's really pervert...

Luckily by then reaching Hubby's place le, I quickly paid my fare and hurriedly got off the cab. I was so freaked out and afraid, quickly called Bixin to complain to her. She was exclaiming omgz all the way, haha...

Haiz, really my luck loh. Always genna these kindda weird things, sob sob...



Was reading up on the HDB's website 2 weeks back to gather info on buying a flat from HDB - the procedures, duration, docs required and costs etc.

There was a sample on the HDB's website to show the actual calculations, but its based on selling price of $98K. Duhz... Where got flat cost $98K nowadays? Not zun one loh...

Gonna gather info on the renovation loans from the different banks now, haiz.... Kaching, kaching gone...




I am feeling frustrated, fuming and about to explode. Especially when my mum broke one of my things AGAIN and shift the blame to me AGAIN. This time round its my Bio-essence Radiant Youth Essence which is 90% full and cost me freaking $30+. Its MY fault that it comes in a glass bottle packaging and that I shouldn't buy it. WTH?!?!? As if I can control how they wanna pack their products? Products which are supposed to remain dry are never left dry because if its not washed/wiped, it is DIRTY. F*ck. Its my hard-earned money for goodness sake. Arghz.

But I am too, too tired till I don't even have the energy to argue.
I need rest and loads of sleep... But I can never have that because its a ongoing war daily and I can never sleep in peace at home. I go to bed every night with the TV, radio and the lights on because my sister apparently must have all these on at the same time.

Oh and because I work in an air-conditioned office, I am deemed to be "having a very good life" and its "not stressful". I am labeled to be wasting money when I spend my own salary on clothes and stuff. But its ok for my mum to replace electricals that are working perfectly alright or just a tiny, minor scratch/defect which can be fixed easily? And... I'm the only one working in this bloody family. $400 a month too little to give? That is more than 20% of my pay for goodness sake. I need to pay my own bills, eat, travel, save and spend too. It is only right that I should give more if I get an increment, it doesn't matter how well I do at work as long as the money comes on time every month. If I am at a meeting or have a meeting, it must be I am getting a scolding by my boss, I must have done something wrong etc.

Please tell me what the hell have I done wrong to deserve all these? Don't they think of my feelings and that I am human too? Can they show me some love and concern? Can they try to understand my situation and that I need quality and not quantity sleep?

I just don't seem to belong here. This "family" of weird people who are just so different from me in terms of behaviour, thinking and everything else. Yet they think I'm the one who's abnormal and the odd one out. I can't fit in and feel isolated, lost and struggling my days through. I go back to a house daily, not a home.

A simple dream/wish/desire but waiting for ages... All I want is just a place called home... Please... Take me away from this house, I need to be freed and breathe.



Its such a torture when I can't reach you. Though I know its because your hp batt is low, I still can't help worrying and feel uneasy not knowing if you have finished work especially at this hour.
My mind goes wild, I worry about tons of things, wonder if you're safe and ok? I feel lost and insecure. I panicked and almost wanna call your home but hold back because of the time.

Until I finally receive your sms, I heave a sigh of relief. But am still very panicky because I can't talk to you and hear your voice. You reject to call me because it gonna be 2am when you reach home. But do you understand, only if I hear your voice, then I can really be sure that you're alright? Maybe not...

I just wanna say, I miss you... I'm having lots of mixed feelings, I need someone to talk to, to confide in... We finally talked on the phone a min ago, but ended up quarreling... You mentioned I forgot to wake up you up this morning and you say I'm throwing a tantrum... I am so disappointed and heartbroken...

I shall go to bed now as what you have told me to,I am typing this with tears running down my cheeks uncontrollably and I shall remember to wake you up later in the morning... Good night and all I want is just someone who has the time to listen to me...



Ok, I know I'm kindda suaku especially when I work so near the airport but I have not explore T3 till now. I been there twice just to purely have lunch at the foodcourt so only seen part of B2 level only.

Since me and Hubby finished work early today, I suggested going to T3 (ultimate reason is I had craving for Popeye's Chicken =p). I was waiting for the T2 shuttle bus with Irah and... ta dah~ One of our transporter happened to pass by and gave us a lift in his van. Hehe, time and money saved!

Hubby was waiting at Coffeebean for me, enjoying his ice latte and chicken pie while playing Warcraft, super good life loh... We took the skytrain to T3 and we took a pic while on it, hehe...


The sun was setting at that time and the sky was beautiful which also gave a nice lighting to this pic. Most importantly was it gave nice glow on my face, lol. Very bad pimple outbreak at the moment and without a trace of makeup, so glad it didn't show up in the pic, hehe...

We walked through the entire T3 from top to bottom, damn tiring. Finally we reached Popeye's but it was packed so we decided to have dinner elsewhere. On the way upstairs, we passed by Candy Empire and bought some chocolates and sweets. Have discount with my airport pass, hehe, so happy! Went to 店小二 for dinner in the end and had a very filling dinner, yum yum. Had 10% off with my Citibank credit card, yeah!

After dinner, walked around again before heading to the bus terminal to take 27 home. Legs felt like they were giving way by now and my ankle still has not recovered till now, its been like months but no improvement. Once I walk too long or sit/sleep and never move my ankle, it hurts when I get up on my feet. Sigh... Not been taking any painkillers or applying the cream cos don't wanna be too dependent on it. Hope it gets well soon, wanna start jogging, must lose weight, loads of it!!!

Hubby mentioned he might be gog to KL next week for work, about 2-3 days... =( Sob sob, can don't want? We have so little time together liao, gonna miss him a lot. Next month he has reservist for 2 weeks, sigh...

K, I'm digressing liao... We took 27 to Tampines and on the way, I was so tired and maybe because I was so at ease with him beside me, I fell asleep on his shoulder. All the while, we were holding hands, it kindda felt like its been so long we done this. We have not taken a bus together for ages on long journeys and I miss falling asleep in his arms. After alighting, we walked back to my place (legs 3/4 broken by now). Midway, I asked a silly question, "Daddy, Galgal tonight can don't go home and go your place orr orr?". But I know impossible lah, until we are married, my mum will never allow me to stay overnight at his place. So far, I have to tell her I'm going chalet, on course, hotel stay after D&D etc. So I can only stay like twice to thrice a year at his place, haiz.

Its Thursday le, weekend coming soon. I need a lot of sleep!!! I'm going to work later and later each week, jialat....



Ermm, I have been asked this question many, many times for the last few years especially during CNY and weddings. But... I cannot answer lah...

Cannot answer as in I dunno... "Someone" haven't go down on his knee so better ask him, dun ask me le ok? =p

For the time being, we're waiting for the HDB 4-room flat launch in Oct and see if we can get a unit. But then again, "someone" never even asked me to be his gf 6 years back (grumbles grumbles), maybe he won't even propose... He'll probably just say got flat liao, must get married mah, don't need propose liao. Maybe I'm not worth the effort?

Anyway, anyhow, somehow, sometime we'll probably get married but dunno when lah. I have already told him, 2 more years at latest I will wait only, if not its sayonara. There are only so many years I can wait and I am getting older with each day. My confidence and patience is slowly but surely fading away.

But then again, who knows maybe he probably thinks I'm just joking? Time will prove him wrong in this case... You have been warned...

For now, good night and dun ask me liao...



A month from now will be my 26th birthday. It feels like I had just reached my mid-20s not long ago and now I'm gonna be in my late 20s soon. I used to feel excited when my birthday is approaching because it means National Day is coming soon = Public Holiday = Beautiful fireworks also. But now I feel, late 20s = biological clock ticking away = ageing = fine lines + wrinkles starting to creep their way through without me noticing.

Maybe its also because I have been busy at work, hardly enough time and energy to feel excited. I have loads of stuff to think about, plan and perhaps pushing myself too far and hard. I am also very tired, physically and mentally. At work, I have to deal with people's emotions, pressure and misc stuff. At home, its a ongoing war daily where there is never a single day of peace.

I suppose not many people really know what I'm going through or feeling because I am so used to smile and laugh to others. I am so used to putting up a strong front and when I do break down, people are surprised. They are used to Bren who is always smiling and laughing except for the frowning when I'm concentrating and the occasional swearing when I'm f**king pissed off. Sometimes I wonder, if they have forgotten I do have a fragile side of me too.

I ask myself sometimes what I have achieved so far? A good job? A good education? A stable relationship? Honestly, I suppose almost none of the above.

I slog for my job and though there might be rewards soon but I know its not something I'm not gonna do for very long, at least till my passion fades.

I'm only a diploma holder, friends around me of my age are mostly degree holders by now. To be honest, sometimes I envy them or even feel "small" compared to them. I suppose they have family who at least support them financially or mentally. While I do not have any of those at all. I feel left out and lost when they chat about what modules they are taking, when they're graduating etc. I wish I was one of them sometimes.

Though being together for 6 years, 2 weeks & 3 days and we are kindda stable in a way. I suppose until we really have our own home and get married, I will always feel lost and insecure. Maybe because I'm starting to feel tired, tired of waiting...

Nothing seems certain and I don't like this feeling. I am someone who likes everything to be planned nicely but I feel nothing is confirmed now. I am worried and panicky. I am unsure if we can afford all the expenses and bills, I do not know if we can pay our installments in future, I do not know how long more he intends to continue this kind of job routine. I guess I have said more than once and we have argued before about this, that I really, really dislike the uncertainty of his job. I know we both have passion for our jobs and though I work long hours too, but I have a fixed income monthly, I get bonus, I get paid leaves & MCs and CPF contribution. But for him, he's working so long hours that its affecting his sleep and health. No work = no income.

What if we need days off to prepare for our house, wedding etc? Then he will have to put his work on hold, there will be less income and his night job is already taking away the little time we can have at night. I don't want it to be when we get married in future, he starts work and I go to bed, when I wake up for work, he's going to sleep. But I suppose he probably thinks its ok we spend so little time together, that he's doing this for our future, that as long as we love each other, its enough... But sad & sorry to say, this is not what I want at all. I need/want/desire stability, I am afraid of uncertainties and I rather he has a stable, fixed monthly income. Maybe he's too used to the freedom of his job and doesn't wanna settle down for a desk-bound job, or maybe he doesn't wanna be tied down at all? All kinds of questions pop into my mind and I do not have an answer to them.

Maybe I'm being too negative, but these are my concerns. When I voice them out, he sometimes seems to feel irritated by it or brushes it off. It hurts and it sometimes leaves me tearing or crying to bed at night. I wonder why can't we sit down and have a good, serious heart-to-heart talk of our expectations and plans? Does he know and understand that sometimes all I want is a listening ear, someone to comfort me, take me in his arms and tell me everything's gonna be alright? I know we have budget constraints but somethings cannot be done/fixed within the budget, its just not simple/easy as that, there should always be allowances. Or maybe I'm wrong? I really don't know anymore...

- 回到当初最单纯的时候

- 想哭就哭，想笑就笑的时刻

- 有从前不顾一切的勇气

- 不再面对如此复杂的人际关系

- 简简单单的过日子

- 珍惜现在拥有的一切

- 要只会爱，不会恨的心

- 快快乐乐地与他度过一辈子

- 自私的认为他只属于我

- 他能多些时间，夜晚陪着我， 即使说说话而已，我心满意足

- 和他建造一个家， 一起手牵手踏上红地毯，有个小宝宝

- 永远永远和他在一起

我想。。。 我很累了，想放慢脚步， 好好的休息一下，安静一下，拥有片刻的安静。
看似简单，却是可遇不可求的事情。我好盼望从前能平静，安静，安稳的睡一觉的日子。

现在的我，只想有他拥我在他怀里直到睡去。。。晚安。。。



Aiming for my 2nd Coach bag, hope to be able to buy at the end of the year when getting 13th month (if any)...

Choosing between the below 3 at the moment, but maybe by then there will be more/nicer designs?

BLEECKER PATENT LEATHER TOTE

BLEECKER SIGNATURE TOTE


SOPHIE SIGNATURE

Noticed its all in purple? I really love this shade of purple! Hehe...



lala lala lala
lala lala lala lala~
两颗心同步爱
你和我分不开

什么都还没说
但我想的你都说中了
当你感到寂寞
你第一个想到我
有太多快乐慢动作重播
每天默契更多
我爱你难得你也选择我
同样爱那么多

我爱你一天一天更确定
一步一步靠近
一点一滴一比一爱 hoh~
像罗马一天一天建立
一点一滴一比一爱
不经意就像呼吸
想你就是必需
你的明天我不缺席 yeah~
爱是一步一步在累积
同步爱

lala lala lala
lala lala lala lala~
两颗心同步爱
你和我分不开

谢谢你懂得我
可能比我了解的更多
若亲爱的你感到难过
ho 答应陪你到最后

我爱你一天一天更确定
一步一步靠近
一点一滴一比一爱 hoh~
像罗马一天一天建立
一点一滴一比一爱
不经意就像呼吸
爱你就是必需
你的明天我不缺席 yeah~
爱是一点一滴清晰 woh~
甜蜜一点一滴慢慢满溢
爱是一步一步累积
同步爱

lala lala lala
lala lala lala lala~
两颗心同步爱
你和我分不开





Attended Kelly's 21st birthday on Sat and felt old, haha. Me and my colleagues were the oldest I suppose. It was so sweet to see so many of her friends turn up to celebrate her birthday. To be honest, I kindda envy her. I did not have a celebration when it was my 21st birthday mainly because I chose to spend the money on a holiday in Bintan instead and my family had no intention to celebrate for me at all.

In fact, they didn't even wish me Happy Birthday on the actual day, no ang bao, no gifts and no "key". I would be lying to say I was not affected and all I got from my mum that day was scolding, complaints etc.

All my life I have been seeking for her approval to do any and everything, for her love, for her acceptance. But I have never succeeded and she only remembers me when she needs favors or "kaching" from me.

I love surprises and giving people surprises. The feeling is indescribable and its heart warming when friends/family actually take the effort to plan and make it happen. Its kindda childish and impossible, but I have always dreamt that maybe someday there will a surprise party for me or something similar, lol. Its just a dream lah afterall. I have a few great gal pals whom I love and happy enough that they remember my birthday every year. =) Especially dear MeiL babe, who always brings back a souvenir for me whenever she travels for work or holiday, listens to me when I have problems and always dishes out compliments to me. =p

K, I think I am digressing. But hey, its a random post, lalala... Think I kindda going haywire cos I'm kindda pissed off now with somethings and someone since yesterday. Shall not blog about it here since its about work and make my blood boil only. Arghz.

Anyway, me and Hubby went to Botak Jones for lunch. They have a branch now at Bedok, don't have to travel so far liao! But other than the Jalapenos, the main courses were kindda disappointing. =( Hubby ordered the steak and asked it to be medium rare, but it turned out to be medium-well cooked. The waitress did ask him to check if the steak was ok. So Hubby told her that but when she offered to changed, he say its ok. Duhz... Since you complain le, might as well change loh. I mean though its coffeeshop but since they are the ones to ask and offer, might as well right? Then while he eat, he was complaining to me, faintz.

Must try: STUFFED JALAPENOS (CHILLIS) - These are hot! These are good! I guess that makes them Good ‘n Hot. We stuff Mexican Jalapenos (pronounced halapenyo) with real mozzarella cheese, cover them with Japanese bread crumbs and fry them until the cheese is nice and gooie. (Quoted from their website)

Here's the pics of what we had, yum yum.

STUFFED JALAPENOS (CHILLIS) - $7.00 (Its really spicy!)


See how cheesy it is~


Seeing this makes me drool...


AUSTRALIAN RIBEYE STEAK - $21.00 (300gm)


CAJUN CHICKEN - $7.50 (Regular)




I went for my scalp treatment after work and got a trim as well. The gal who helped me do the treatment chatted with me and I was kindda grumbling to her the long hours I work and phone ringing after office hours etc. She asked me a question: Why did I choose this job? Almost without thinking much, I replied: Its my passion and I still have a lot of things to learn which I find interesting.

I missed a lot of things after working in this company and really hope someday I can do/experience it again without the constraints of the job.

I miss...
- knocking off at 5pm sharp and find Hubby waiting at my office building for me
- having lunch with him sometimes during lunchtime
- meeting Hubby almost everyday
- him calling me to come out of the office and turning up with muffin and hot chocolate from Starbucks becos I complained of gastric pain
- the bi-weekly KTV sessions at Party World with the gals which we used to go after work
- Grace's "office-cooked" lunch
- clubbing with the gals on my b-days and countdowns
- the days when we used to chat on the phone at night before he started this night job (which I really, really hate)
- calling Meilin and ask her what time going back and walking to Lavender MRT
- meeting Charlene in the morning to go work together
- 3pm tea breaks with Jolene and Charlene
- the Blanco Court Fish Meat with deep-fried egg
- Hubby giving me surprises by turning up in the morning and accompany me to work
- having breakfast with Hubby
- our occasional dinners with the gals after work at the bar opposite office
- playing pool after work and during weekends
- dancing to the techno/trance/house/top 40s music in clubs
- weekday movies
- the days when I only receive personal calls after work and during weekends
- taking holidays with Hubby

Of cos I'm earning a much more higher pay, but sometimes I ask myself if its worth all these in return for all those I missed? I can't promise anyone that I can meet them after work becos you never know what last min shipment will pop up even if you been free the entire day. Even on leave and MC, my hp rings non-stop. I can't go on long leave or holidays. Its been 3 years and 1 month now since I joined this company with the past year being most hectic in this department.

I suppose time will tell in December whether I will continue to stay on or consider moving on. For now, I can only do whatever I can within my means.

I will survive... Becos I'm the determined, stubborn and workaholic Bren. I live work, breathe work and am passionate about work. I slog and work for an interest and passion, not money.



I'm in a pretty good mood today other than a few nuisance emails from customers. Frustrating when they wanna know rates and schedule but give you little/no info and impossible to meet deadlines, duhz... Makes you feel like deleting the email and pretend you never see... =x

Anyway, back to the topic. I'm happy cos I finished work early today! Hehe, I knocked off at 6.30pm loh, hahaha. Usually I'm slogging till at least 8-10pm and the skies are dark by then. Rewind a bit, around 4pm Linda came over for a meeting and bought us chicken pies. So sweet and nice of her, thanks babe! *muacks* It was huge and yummy, me and Bixin actually competed to compare who had more green peas, lol. Cos I don't take green peas and Bixin doesn't take veggie.

Me, Irah and Bixin left around 6.30pm to catch the T2 bus. While waiting for the bus, a millipede climbed onto my toes... Arghz!!! So gross and scary, sob sob. After that, for some reason I felt my toes keep feeling itchy... =(

We parted ways at T2 to take bus home while I headed to Tampines Central to meet Hubby. I really, really need new pairs of contact lens, hate wearing specs and wanna look good during weekend mah (esp for Kelly's b-day celebration), haha.

Got my contact lens ($80 for 3 boxes) then headed for dinner at 避风塘 and had 麻油鸡， 肉松软壳蟹， veggies and duck with jelly fish salad. Mostly tasted except the soft shell crab which I didn't really like. There was a DBS/POSB promotion for min. spending of $50, there will be a 10% discount. So Hubby say more than $50, I pay cos I have the DBS Ladies card, if less he pay. So bad right? Final bill - $42+! Haha, Brenbren wins!

After dinner was the start of my shopping spree! Went to Shine at Century Square to shop for shoes but nothing caught my fancy. I can never fit into covered shoes no matter how pretty and wide it is, sigh. My feet are so big and ugly. =( Headed to DMK instead and got a pair of white heels, after discount was $24+.

Walked over to Tampines Isetan and saw Guess was having a sale, 20% off wallets. Got one in plum colour to replace my current Guess wallet. I'm so in love those 2 tones stuff recently. The sales lady was a friendly auntie and asked me if I wanted to get a bag to match. I wish!!! But Hubby will kill me, hehe... Maybe buy for myself as a birthday reward next month, haha. The wallet cost me $47+ after the 20% off and my Isetan credit card discount.

Next stop was Charles & Keith! Got myself 1 pair of flats and another pair with extremely short heels. Total costs was $59.80 with no discounts. But... still haven't end my shopping spree! Proceeded to Aussino cos I have a $25 voucher and bought Diney Princess print bedhseet, haha. I know very childish but very cute and topped up $19.80 after using the voucher.

Last stop was to 77th Street to get my ear studs. Lost the last stud on the left ear and replacing the last stud on the right ear. Got a little pink star stud for the left ear and a 4mm square hot pink stud for the right ear - total $4.50~

I did all these in an hour, very fast right? Hehe, but now calculate the total damages, my heart very pain. Spent about $200+ in a hour! Haiz... That means no more new clothes for me this month. =(










Was reading Kelly's blog and went to the link - http://memyselfmine.blogspot.com/ (A girl whose bf passed away during the army training). After reading the first few posts, I found tears rolling down my face. It was sad and I could understand how she felt. Its really tough and not easy to move on.

I know its easy for us to always console others and say time will heal all wounds, to move on with life etc. But you are not them and its easier said than done. Its not easy and it really takes time.

Many years ago (approx. 10 years), I had once lost someone dear in my life then. Though it happened 2 months after we had gone our separate ways, but still, this was someone whom I was in love then and we had been together for a year before breaking up. I only got to know about it on the last day of the wake and I did cry for a period of time, as a friend and someone I had once loved. 2 weeks before he passed away, he called me and mentioned he was going for an operation. Being still pissed at him then and thinking he was just trying to act pitiful, I said I'll call him back but I never did and never will have the chance to.

Of cos years have passed and I have moved on long ago, the point is I regretted not calling back and not having talked to him for the last time. This also taught me a lesson, till this day when I tell a friend I'll call back later, as much as possible I will call or at least sms back.

I sent the blog link to Hubby in MSN and he also said its sad. Somehow it affected me and I started asking Hubby if he'll be with me forever and take care of me? He replied: yup definitely. Thanks Hubby, I love you and I hope we'll be together forever, holding hands down the aisle, becoming parents together, aging together and strolling in the park when we are grandparents...

We are one step nearer to our goal and let's work hard towards our dreams... Treasure you, our shared memories and looking forward to create even more in the future.