Saturday, August 09, 2008
She's driving everyone bonkers and irritated again. The whole house never, ever has peace for a day. I have to blast my music on my pc to almost the max volume and its not enough to cover her voice. So imagine how loud she is? Moreover I'm in the room, she's in the living room/kitchen and my room door is shut. For goodness sake, its 1+am.
She has been ranting on for the past hour and I don't suppose she will stop anytime soon. Even if she will, she will continue repeating the whole damn thing again tomorrow for a couple of times.
I really hate this place, its just a house to me now. Somewhere I can go back to bathe and sleep. I hate spending my waking hours in this place even if its just minutes. I rush to get of this house everyday asap, its no longer a home since ages back.
Everyday, I hope, I yearn and wait for the day for Hubby to bring me away from this place. Its not gonna be easy, its gonna take some time and I don't know if I can take it till then.
Its disturbing me mentally and affecting my sleep and well-being. Honestly, other than bringing me up and giving me an education, I don't know what else she has done for me as a mother. She thinks the things she does and the so-called sacrifices are for our good. But its not, its all done for her own sake, for her convenience and everything has to be revolved around her.
I need my life, my freedom, peace... A place called
HOME...
Brenbren at 1:18 AM