Friday, July 18, 2008
Its such a torture when I can't reach you. Though I know its because your hp batt is low, I still can't help worrying and feel uneasy not knowing if you have finished work especially at this hour.
My mind goes wild, I worry about tons of things, wonder if you're safe and ok? I feel lost and insecure. I panicked and almost wanna call your home but hold back because of the time.
Until I finally receive your sms, I heave a sigh of relief. But am still very panicky because I can't talk to you and hear your voice. You reject to call me because it gonna be 2am when you reach home. But do you understand, only if I hear your voice, then I can really be sure that you're alright? Maybe not...
I just wanna say, I miss you... I'm having lots of mixed feelings, I need someone to talk to, to confide in... We finally talked on the phone a min ago, but ended up quarreling... You mentioned I forgot to wake up you up this morning and you say I'm throwing a tantrum... I am so disappointed and heartbroken...
I shall go to bed now as what you have told me to,I am typing this with tears running down my cheeks uncontrollably and I shall remember to wake you up later in the morning... Good night and all I want is just someone who has the time to listen to me...
Brenbren at 1:34 AM
