Sunday, June 01, 2008
Changed the skin again, its like the 2nd or 3rd time I changed this month, haha...
I really, really like purple, black and butterflies design, so changed to this skin, hehe.
Spent the past few hours looking for skins, editing the info etc and finally got it done. Phew...
Honestly don't know what to blog now cos brain cells kindda dead already and lots of things are going through my mind at the moment, so can't really focus too.
Its like I am "here" now and my mind is flying and floating somehere. Kindda overwhelmed with some stuff and searching for answers. Asking myself: If this is what I really want? Am I happy now? Will I be happier? Is it really love/passion or its a habit? What are the pros and cons?
Its so easy to get tired and fall into a routine after some time. I am afraid of changes but yet a part of me says I have always done what I want if I really want it and not look back. No regrets, only lessons learnt if things go wrong.
A painful mistake and lesson learnt 8yrs back and I have put/buried the past behind me. But people dig it up, re-open my scars and remind me of the pain I once felt again. I would like to say thanks for the concern, I understand where you're coming from as a fren. But... I would really appreciate it if its never brought up again. It might sound cold and heartless, it might seem I am escaping but I have moved on with my life, I have chose to forgot some memories and I am very much happier now. So as a fren, I hope I have your blessings/wishes for my current life and future. If you happen to be a part of my life at that stage 8yrs back, thanks for the concern and help back then. I remembered it till now and thank you from the bottom of my heart. I was young, I was naive but who hasn't been?
Sounds kindda heavy now so I had better stop here. Its 3.37am and I got a manicure at 12pm later, better catch some sleep.... Good night...
Brenbren at 3:18 AM
