Sunday, August 27, 2006
Losing faith... Having doubts...
Wondering: What has happened? Or what has not? Why are things turning out this way? Why are things and situations so difficult? I'm trying my hardest and my best in whatever I can, but its not working.
I'm tired, really tired. I hate myself for being a hypocrite and putting on a mask which is something I despise most in others. Yet, I'm doing it. Only becos I still wanna act/appear strong, maybe in someway hoping that I will really become strong somehow. I'm still my "normal" happy-go-lucky, cheerful and all-smiles for everyone. Inside, I'm bleeding and crying out loud.
I hate myself for being so weak and not being able to become really strong.
Contractions... Guess that's what life is abt....
Brenbren at 1:01 AM
