Monday, May 01, 2006
On one hand, I'm happy for him that he's earning more now. On the other hand, I'm sad that we are spending less time together, be it in quality or quantity.
I'm working in the day, he's sleeping. When we are out at night, he has to rush home to work. When he's working, its time for me to sleep. We seem to be saying/doing the same things everyday, it seems that the sparks and romance are slowly but surely fading away bit by bit.
A typical day will go like this:
- Morning: Sms him say good morning, feeling tired/sianz/sick etc, miss him.
- Noon: He will sms, u eaten? eat wat? meeting tonite?
- Night: Meet for dinner, walk a bit, rush home
- Midnight: sms each other do wat? watching tv/ bathe liao? I sleep, he works.
Repeative everyday and he no longer gives me those small surprises and those little things he used to do for me... Fetching me after work, giving each other small, affordable yet sweet gifts for each other. Seems that I have to ask/beg now if I want him to do something for me. And probably he will do it just becos I will be angry if he doesn't, not becos he's willing to do so anymore....
When was th last time we celebrated our anni? Last yr... This yr will probably just pass by quietly without he remembering... Maybe its just me asking for too much...
I'll just give myself time to try to work things out cos it takes 2 hands to clap. But if things remain the same, guesss tt's it...
Brenbren at 12:18 PM
