Sunday, December 11, 2005
Does money really mean anything? Does money measure love? Does money represents everything else? Not to me. But to my mum, yes...
I'm feeling so down. I got her something I thought she might like for X'mas present. In the end, what I got only was a chiding from her. Not for spending the money. But becos its too cheapskate to her. What has happened to "its the thought that counts"? From my own mother, it really hurts. I know she really likes Hello Kitty and I saw a Hello Kitty beautiful calendar which I tot she'll like. What I got was a scolding only.
"You got the face to buy something so cheap for me." "I bring you up for yrs and now you're working, you buy something so cheap." "Even if you buy something expensive for me, it should be the way, I deserve it." "You have never buy expensive things for me before."
Are these really true? How expensive is expensive? Its just x'mas, a occasion we never celebrate at home. I bought her expensive stuff for her b-day and Mother's Day before, why has she never thought of that? Ain't those occasions more significant? Mobile phone, jewellery and even the expensive bedsheet set, I have bought it all for her. Is it not enough?
I guess, she'll never like me the way she likes my sis. A $20 present from my sis makes her happy and proud, a equivalent present from me gets hurtful remarks only. What am I? Just a money shaking tree to her? To mum, sometimes I really "Hate Myself for Loving You".
Brenbren at 12:19 PM
