Friday, October 14, 2005
To get a degree or not? Have been playing with this idea for a long time. Not just for the sake of adding on to my resume and expecting a higher pay, but really more of to learn more and know more and give myself more opportunites in the future. But seriously don't have the time and $ now to do this.
I dunno why too, but after since I decided to study logistics in poly, I have no regrets and never seriously thought of gog into another field. Its hard to explain, but something abt this field keeps me gog and after almost 3 yrs of working life (though the first 2.5 yrs in my 1st job was more of coordination), I still have the passion for it. True there's competition everywhere, but I feel that this is a good field to go into as there are so many areas in logistics.
Purchasing, import, export, supply chain, warehousing etc are all part and parcel of logistics. There are so many areas to explore and each area has loads of new things to learn and interesting in its way. I have done export - sea freight and now import - air freight. 2 totally different areas but still enriching. Almost everyday I learn something new, sometimes through the hard way too. I guess I'll still be in this line for quite some time and hopefully I'll be as still passionate as when I just started out.
Alright, back to the topic of getting a degree, I have side-tracked too much. =p Well, honestly, sometimes I feel really left out when I have gathering with my poly classmates cos almost everyone else is doing their degree and they are toking abt their sch work, courses and how long more to go etc. I mean, I'm happy for them and though I would really like to upgrade myself, but I have many constraints. Family, time, money and marriage/flat plans are some of the constraints I gotta face and its really not easy being in my family. Sometimes, I'm even afraid to meet up cos I don't seem to ever blend in. Everyone seems to be doing gd in their job and studies, while I'm like still struggling after 3 yrs. And there is the dreaded qns which I really don't wanna answer which is part of a past which I have put behind and really dun wanna mention anymore.
Guess I'm still insecure and self-conscious. I may look happy and confident, but I'm trying to put up a strong front actually. Maybe cos I'm used to that. Always trying to be/look happy cos I don't want frens to be worried abt me or spoil their moods. For now, I guess I can only just with the flow and cope with watever I can. Cos I'm really tired...
Brenbren at 11:28 PM
